Kaz James, 37, describes always feeling “weird” and not able to relate to others until he heard about “human pup” online and met others like him.
It was not until Kaz was able to access the internet in his late teens that he was able to discover others like him.
The England native Kaz, eventually allowed his pup personality to come to life after the help of an online “pup play community” as well as open-minded friends.
Kaz shares that without their help, he would have always felt like an outsider:
“I didn’t ever feel like a human, I always felt like a dog that was really out of place. I never really had a name for it, being a pup wasn’t a thing I knew about. When I met other people like me I felt I could be myself.
I was known by my friends for [saying] hello to them by grabbing hold of the collar of their shirt in my teeth and biting or licking them, very canine-type behaviors. It was always how I was.”
Kaz, who is now a store manager, describes himself as a “full-time orange, brown and camo K9′ who frequently unleashes his dog persona by carrying things around in his mouth, barking at friends and eating dog biscuits.
Kaz says that from age six – he realized his actions were “dog-like” but it was never brought up by his friends or family.
Kaz went on to explain:
“I realized that my behaviors were quite dog-like in childhood, probably from the age of six. No-one ever talked about it, it was never mentioned.
My parents took early retirement and we moved to a farm in Norfolk. It wasn’t until the internet arrived in our house that I started chatting to people online – mostly through groups and message boards.”
“I was incredibly nervous when I first started talking to people online. I was living with my parents and I would sneak downstairs at three in the morning to get on the internet to look for this stuff.
I would hold a pillow over the 56k modem so you couldn’t hear the modem noise. I was worried that If I ever spoke to anyone about it, they would be like ‘you’re a nut job’.”
When he was able to learn about others similar to him on the internet, he eventually built up the confidence to step out into the human pup community and find his own footing.
The 37-year-old will only wear “mild” clothes to work, like a t-shirt with the word “pup” on the front.
The store manager is also the co-founder of Kennel Klub.
But when the work day is through — Kaz slips into one of his customized rubber outfits (at around “roughly” $523 each) as well as masks, harnesses and a $2,600 bespoke fur suit.
Kaz enjoys lounging at home and eating meals out of his dog bowl.
He shares:
“I feel a sense of peace being a human pup. Little things make me feel happy like eating my dinner out of a bowl using a knife and fork. I don’t eat at people’s tables when I go to friends’ houses. I can be a normal person in a restaurant, I’m trained and can deal with humans, but I don’t like it, it makes me feel uncomfortable. I don’t eat dog food, I eat regular food like a normal person but I do eat *Bonios they’re quite nice. There are loads of dog treats you can get that are human friendly which are actually quite good for you.”
*Bonios are a dog biscuit treat.
While many folks outside of the tight knit, human pup community often believe the movement is solely a fetish — Kaz believes it is instead “all-encompassing” and can focus on both romance and reconnecting with childhood fun.
And to those who are curious in his lifestyle, he shares how you should “just give it a try.”
NOW WATCH: Sweden Actually Turns It’s Garbage Into Energy | Save The World